My internal battle with imposter syndrome probably goes back as far as elementary school and wanting to be the straight-A kid. I felt I had to prove something, but it was primarily to myself because I did not have the mindset to believe in me.
I first learned term imposter syndrome several years ago during a leadership development program. Sitting in a room filled with colleagues I respected, I questioned if I belonged in that room. I was quick to dismiss compliments, whether personal or professional. I did not understand that my internal narrative was stalling my career growth, making me believe I wasn’t “enough”—smart enough, capable enough, or deserving enough.
I’ve read that there are five types of imposters. For me, it’s a blend of the perfectionist and the superperson. Perfectionism stifled my ability to learn from mistakes, while the superperson left me stretching myself thin in an attempt to do it all.
I’ve since realized that perfection isn’t attainable, and really isn’t necessary. Sometimes, good enough truly is good enough. Collaboration and delegation have restored my work-life balance. Now, I acknowledge my achievements, accept compliments gracefully, and embrace recognition positively.
Professionally, breaking free from imposter syndrome begins with strong female role models and mentors. I am incredibly fortunate to have a supportive female leader who believes in me. She sets high standards but is always ready to coach when needed, and allows me to shine when I let myself step into the spotlight. This kind of support underscores the power of women uplifting other women and celebrating each other’s successes.
On a personal level, I am working on silencing the negative self-talk. Reminding myself that I am “enough” has been crucial. Accepting compliments, instead of dismissing them, is another critical step. Most importantly, I know that I’m not alone. I am surrounded by positive and supportive friends and colleagues who reinforce my belief in myself.
Recently, I was offered another opportunity for leadership development. This time, I am embracing it so that I can be a role model and a great leader to my team. Was it divine intervention? No, it was something I had earned and deserved. Imposter syndrome is an obstacle that can be overcome and takes work. With the right mindset, mentors, and self-compassion, I can overcome what holds me back and unlock my full potential—and so can you!
—Penny Emery a Senior Talent Acquisition Manager at Delaware North
